terrshee's Diaryland Diary

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Let's Not Do The Time Warp Again

I stood on the subway platform today and realized that every work day is almost exactly the same. The same guy walks by at the same time carrying the same size cup of 7 Eleven coffee. The same guy stands next to me listening to his Ipod and the same woman comes by and says "hello," then moves on. The train stops at the same spot and the same people exit and get on.

The same office greets me with the same round of things to take care of.

I had a distrubing moment this morning when I couldn't remember if I'd done my usual morning routine or not just because it is so automatic. It was rather akin to waking up and not knowing where I was. I was disoriented but not exactly alarmed, just briefly lacking in identity.

I've been doing this for fourteen years. No wonder it is all engraved in my cortex. There's nothing of individuality involved any more. Weird. No wonder I can't get motivated.

12:32 p.m. - 2006-05-25
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